I have no way to show it to you so I sat thinking about what I could discuss that begins with N.
How about new?
Sorry to dwell in death, but I have two people close to me fighting different cancers and both at Stage 4. First my auntie Beryl was diagnosed with Stage 4 breast cancer. It has spread to her lymph nodes. She is taking chemotherapy and other treatments to try and reduce the tumor so she can have a double mastectomy. Since September it has gotten smaller, just not enough so the fight continues.
Then my Opa, (grandfather), was diagnosed with Stage 4 prostate cancer. It has spread to his liver, kidneys and bones. He was in much pain, and they tried many treatments to get him to stop producing testosterone. It is what feeds prostate cancer. All to no avail, I am afraid. They had to remove his testicles. Bright note is that he is at home and recovering well. The cancer is still there but slowing down. It will never go away and will one day claim his life, but now we have been given more time.
Here is where the new comes in.
These two people have been in my life always. I will have to adjust to a new beginning when they go, and with the knowledge we have about their cancers, we are slowly trying to make an adjustment now. We don't know how much time is left together, there is just no way of knowing. So we must make the most of what time we have left. Then the new beginning without them won't be filled with as much regret.
We all experience loss and death, but it is the new beginning of life without that person that makes us stronger. Our memories keep close while we learn to adjust. But we all do, somehow.
I've been filled with so much regret in previous deaths, at least this time I am given an opportunity to have a lengthy goodbye.
What is one way that you deal with loss? For me, I write poems in honor of each person I lose.