Frankie Byrne has returned from the war in Iraq to a war in her San Diego home. More than anything, Frankie wants to regain the closeness she once shared with her husband and daughter, but it feels like they've created a new life without her. She doesn't seem to belong anywhere anymore. Her father, Brigadier General Harlan Byrne, USMC retired, thinks that Frankie's problems are her own fault. A woman, especially a mother, should not go off to war. When Frankie is pressured to testify about what she saw in Iraq, her fragile nerves are stretched even thinner. She knows the time has come to be honest about her PTSD and find a way to heal. It's a battle that won't be easy, but one Frankie must face in order to save her daughter, her marriage, and herself.
Publisher: Grand Central Publishing
Other books by this author:
The Good Sister
Little Girl Gone
Author Bio:
Drusilla Campbell is the author of three critically acclaimed novels: Wildwood, The Edge of Sky, and Blood Orange. Before she started school she had crossed the Pacific Ocean three times. In her twenties she lived in Europe and Central America. Today she's happy to stay at home in San Diego with her husband, the attorney and poet Art Campbell, two rescued dogs, and three horses.
Chapter One Excerpt
October
1990— Washington, DC
It
rained for three days.
This
was not the soft, slow soak that twelve-
year-
old Frankie Byrne knew. Rain in Washington, DC, was a wall of cold
liquid steel flooding the streets with rushing litter- filled water
that could sweep a pedestrian off her feet if she didn’t hang on to
her father’s hand. It swamped the Mall and ruined shoes bought
especially for the meeting with President and Mrs. George Herbert
Walker Bush. Frankie loved it.
Her
brother, Harry, was still in a wheelchair then, and the part of his
trousers where his legs should have been was soaked. Frankie would
have been in a terrible mood if she were the one who’d had her legs
amputated at the knee, but Harry never complained about anything.
The
limo heater blew hot air, and before they’d driven a block Frankie
wanted to shed her coat— pale blue wool and, like her shoes, bought
for the special occasion. She would feel more comfortable in soccer
shorts or sweats and athletic shoes, but she was Brigadier General
Harlan Byrne’s daughter and knew what was required of her. Every
night since they checked into the Hilton Hotel, she had practiced
balancing a book on her head while walking across the room she and
Harry shared. She wobbled on the kitten heels as if they were three-
inch stilettos. He said it was the funniest thing he’d ever seen,
better than Seinfeld.
She
began to unbutton her coat. Her mother shook her head.
“We
could cook a chicken in here.”
“That’s
enough, Francine.” When her father used his command voice, there
was no point arguing.
She
was too excited to sit still, but her parents and Harry were solemn
as pallbearers. The General’s back was so straight it hurt her own
to look at him, but when she did she automatically tucked in her
stomach and dropped her shoulders down and back an inch or two. She
composed her face into an expression that she hoped matched her
father’s in sobriety.
More
than anything she wanted the General to be proud of her, and if that
meant she couldn’t crack a smile from now until taps, she would
manage somehow. Sitting straight and strong, her father looked
magnificent in his Marine Corps dress uniform with the stars and bars
polished and the Purple Heart ribbons lined up perfectly. He’d been
shot twice in Vietnam, once in the leg and once in the shoulder. He
rescued three of his Marines from the VC and kept them all alive in a
hole in the ground until a helo found them. Another time he was hit
with shrapnel; he had a five- inch scar under his shoulder blade.
He’d been bitten by some kind of snake too, a death on speed
adder, and almost died, but no one gave out medals or ribbons for a
snakebite.
The
General had put his life on the line for his Marines and for America
and that’s why he and his family had been invited to Washington.
The president had declared a special day to honor the country’s
heroes.
Frankie
had been revved up and practically manic (her mother’s word) since
they landed at Dulles International two days earlier. She had worn
herself out enjoying all the things there were to see and do in the
capital, and at night there had been adult parties where she was on
her best behavior. Being Harlan Byrne’s daughter, she was
accustomed to meeting important people in the government and
military. The year before General Powell and his wife had come to
dinner. Without knowing any details, Frankie knew that her father’s
opinion on military matters was valued although he had long been
retired.
“I’m
sweating.”
“Stop
complaining. It’s only a few more blocks.”
“I
can smell you,” Harry taunted. “Chicken fricassee.”
She
aimed a kick at him and hit car upholstery where his shins used to
be. Her cheeks blazed, but he only smiled and shrugged and that made
her even more ashamed.
Harry
was five years older than she and ordered her around as if she were a
grunt; plus he teased her, promising that if she’d do his chores he
would give her half of one of his cinnamon rolls. And not always the
smallest half either. There was nothing stingy about Harry. And when
Frankie’s life got sharky which it did whenever the General went
after her for grades or table manners or not trying hard enough in
sports, Harry was always there like a rock in the surf she could
scramble up on and feel safe. It was Harry who told her she was a
natural athlete and to be glad she was the tallest girl in the
seventh grade at Arcadia School.
Harry
had been accepted for Annapolis before his accident, slated to be a
Marine like their father and every Byrne before him going back to the
War of Independence. In the General’s office there was a display
case holding the medals and ribbons he had inherited from his
forebears. Frankie had watched his face when he learned that Harry
would never serve. Not a muscle twitched to show how much this
grieved him, but Frankie knew it just about broke his heart.
Amazingly
Harry had quickly adjusted to his disability. Frankie’s suspicion
that he was relieved to escape military duty was confirmed when he
told her he had always wanted to be a pediatrician and now he could
be. She was incredulous.
Until
his accident he had never told anyone that his ambition was to go to
Africa and work with Doctors Without Borders or to open a clinic for
poor children right in San Diego. His aspirations and ambitions had
been pipe dreams, subordinate to the General’s determination that
he would distinguish himself as a Marine Corps officer. Harry had
been breaking school rules when he took a shortcut through the
parking lot at Cathedral Boys’ High. It was spring and the track
coach was a bear for punctuality, but Harry was a senior with girls
and graduation on his mind. He wasn’t paying attention and neither,
as it happened, was Mr. Penniman, one of the history teachers. He’d
had trouble starting his ancient VW van, had to play the clutch just
so. One minute there was no one in his rearview mirror and the next
there was a thump and Harry Byrne went down.
The
doctors at Scripps Hospital had tried to save his legs but they were
a mess, and although Harry was young, they would never mend properly.
Frankie was with her parents when the doctor told them, “We’re
going to have to take them. At the knee.” She remembered how her
father’s jaw set. Barely moving his lips, he said, “Do it.”
For
a while Frankie was angry at Harry for being late for track, for not
seeing the old VW van, for never really wanting to be a Marine. He
seemed like a traitor to the Byrne family, the corps, and the General
in particular.
The
guard at the White House gate held a black umbrella over his head as
he talked to the limo driver, then saluted the General and waved them
up the circular drive to the entrance. At the entrance there were
more umbrellas and Frankie’s shoes got wetter, but the welcoming
committee at the White House knew how to handle Harry’s chair and
had him inside before the rest of them.
“Welcome
to my humble home,” her brother whispered and swept his arm in an
arc, grinning like the Wonderland cat.
Everywhere
she looked there were sober- faced men in uniforms and suits, buds
stuck in their ears. A Marine who looked like Bon Jovi offered her
his arm, and she slipped her hand into the crook of his elbow though
she was able to walk just fine in her little heels. She tried not to
hear them squishing. The family was escorted down a long hall lined
with paintings and mirrors framed in gold and through a wide doorway
into a lovely room with windows facing the White House lawn. They
were seated in the front row of about twenty comfortably padded
chairs.
The
room filled with other men in military uniforms from all the
services. Some came alone, others had wives and children with them.
Frankie hoped she didn’t look as dorky and awestruck as the other
kids did. After a little waiting time, a disembodied voice announced,
“Ladies and gentlemen, the president of the United States,” and
everyone stood and there was more saluting and then the leader of the
free world walked in and stood about six feet from Frankie. She
observed how pink his skin was and that he had a Band-Aid on his left
thumb, as if he’d chewed on a hangnail and made it bleed.
The
president called the General to the front of the room and shook his
hand hard, holding it in both of his while he looked him straight in
the eye. He made a speech about the General’s heroism, his
humility, and his service to the country since he had retired and he
said the nation was grateful and proud. Through it all the General
stood as still as the officer Frankie had seen the day before,
guarding the tomb at Arlington National Cemetery. Composed, and in
her eyes, radiant.
“Harlan
Byrne,” the president said, “you are a great American hero.”
Everyone
in the room clapped enthusiastically and then another hero came
forward, but the General stayed beside President Bush. Thirty minutes
later there were six men on the dais, three on either side of the
president. Flashbulbs reflected off every mirrored and polished
surface in the beautiful room. Frankie wanted to be a Marine standing
beside the president in a dress uniform, wanted to be covered with
ribbons and medals.
At the end of the ceremony, Mrs. Bush came in wearing a wine-red
dress with a lace collar and shoes with heels like Frankie’s. The
General introduced his family to the first couple.
The
president shook Harry’s hand. “We heard about your accident, son,
and Mrs. Bush and I are so very sorry. A terrible thing to happen.
Terrible. I understand you’ve decided on a career in medicine.”
“Yes,
sir.”
“I’m
sure you’ll make a wonderful doctor,” Mrs. Bush said.
“Thank
you, ma’am.”
“Whatever
he does,” the president said, “he’ll make you proud, General
Byrne.”
Frankie
glanced at the General, though she did not really expect his
expression to show his feelings. In Ms. Hoffman’s English class she
had learned the word inscrutable.
No other word described her father as well. Without looking at Harry,
she knew what he was thinking. They both knew he could win the Nobel
Prize for Medicine, but the General wouldn’t be as proud as if he
wore the uniform of the Marine Corps.
“Mr.
President, may I present my daughter, Francine?”
Mrs.
Bush said something about soccer.
“Yes,
ma’am,” Frankie wasn’t quite sure what she was agreeing to. She
stood up straighter and looked right over Barbara Bush’s head, out
the window to where the lawn stretched away from the house and the
rain fell in silver chains.
“And
I understand you have a beautiful singing voice.”
Mrs.
Bush had a friendly way about her. Talking to her, Frankie relaxed
and it seemed natural to tell her about the Bach cantata the All
Souls’ choir was rehearsing. There were more questions and she
must have said and done the right thing because as they all filed
into the dining room for a fancy lunch, her mother whispered, “I’m
very proud of you, Frankie.”
The
praise would have meant more coming from her father.
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I imagine we don't realize how often this situation must happen after a war vet comes home. Would love to read and learn.
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Interesting read for sure.
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